My Bio-mother...

Well, I sit here thinking of what next to write about.  I suddenly thought, my bio-mother, cause that is what she is to me, nothing else.

You see my bio-mother tore me away from any family I might have ever known, my dad too, but my bio-mother(here on in only known as bm) did it to me twice.  We had been living in Michigan near her side of the family till I was about 19-months old, when my dad, as I understand it, requested a transfer(as he was in the Air Force) to somewhere other than MI or OH.

Well, we got far enough away, all the way out to California.  Don't get me wrong, I love California, but the bio-family I could-have, should-have known is back east.  I long for the day where I could have called up any of my cousins and said,"Hey, let's go to the mall", or, "let's go to the movies".  Nope, got screwed there.

Well, by the time I was 3 or 4, bm & daddy split.  It seems he was doing something he shouldn't have with me, something he should have been thrown in jail for.(Later in his life, he truly saw what he done wrong, repented and got help, so I commend him for that.)   That's why they split.  But this blog is about bm, not about dad so enough about him.

Now, come on...I know that with any family, he*, with any person they can have skeletons in their closet.  I know my dad sure does, but come on people.  To tear me away from family?!

Bm was very authoritative with me while I was growing up.  It got so bad while I was a teenager that every weekend I had to use Spic-n-Span to scrub the walls(the drywall mind you) till it showed the metal frame of the house.  That still wasn't good enough for her!  W.t.h?!

All I know is, that growing up in a authoritative household, it wasn't a pretty sight.  By the time I was 6-years old, bm dated several men, the last finally to become my step-daddy.  Oh!  What a combo there!  He was the same way, except he did the green stuff, you know, marijuana.  A real winner there.  But this blog-post is not about him, so let's move on...

So, sometime after high school I got pregnant 3-times, only the 2nd one I lost through a miscarriage.(I know she was a girl, and I know one day I will see her in heaven.)  The 1st and 3rd pregnancy were joyful.  I have a beautiful daughter and a handsome son.  My 2 children have 2 different fathers.

Now, here's a doozy...my bm in her infinite wisdom(yeah, her narcissistic, self-preservatory, self-made b* she is) used Children's Protective Services to legally steal my children away from me.

So, not only did I lose my bio-family that I could have known all these years, the joy of me being a mother got stolen from me...by bm.

It took me 8 of 13 years to Fight CP$ the legal way, in trying to get my children back home, when I should have known my Rights to begin with, and just written bm out of my life.

Well, when I found out that bm had used CP$ to legally kidnap my children from me, it tore me up inside.  I literally cried everyday for 3-weeks not knowing what was going on with my children.  Her reasoning?  "I was protecting *Jane(not my daughter's real name) from *John(not his real name who was my son's father) from being further *___*(not going to say, and not going to give you any hints either as this is not the subject for this post).

I was being emotionally drained on all accounts...for the love of my children, for the loss of my children, for what *John did to *Jane, for bm using CP$ to kidnap my children, for lack of sleep, for stress of not knowing what my children were going through.

Growing up in an authoritative household, and not knowing my Rights, I turned to my court-appointed attorney. (I'll keep this part brief as this post is really about bm.)  He did nothing for me.  In fact I later learned that he sold me down the river.  More about the corrupt court system in another post.

With bm having physical custody(as the courts stole it from me and gave it to her) of my children, she 99% of the time used that to her advantage by NOT allowing my children to call me, when it was court-ordered to do so.  Let me say that again, but in easier language...I had asked my children several different times, at supervised visits that we got, why they never called me.  Their response,"Gugi(there name for bm) said later".  Well, bm,...Later never came.  I guess one day you are going to have to answer to your God as to why you used such a corrupt system to take my children from me.

I had SO much HATE for bm, it tore me up inside because of her using CP$ to steal my children from me, had many health issues...was stressed all the time, did not sleep well, had ALL the classic symptoms of type 2 diabetes(hungry & thirsty all the time, no energy, sleeping when I wasn't  working or driving, peeing every 15 minutes like a racehorse, lost weight, gained weight, eyesight got VERY poor, skin very dry), depressed, and I was crying half the time cause I missed my children.  After 8 years I finally decided it wasn't worth my health to hate a woman that I was never ever going to have anything to do with for the rest of my life.  So, it has been a journey for the healing process for me, but I can healthily say at this point in time of my life that I no longer hate bm.  I don't love her either.  I have no feelings for the woman.  She will have to settle up her Karma with her god when her time comes.

Today I have no feelings for bm, negative or positive.  As a matter of fact, 99% of the time I don't even think about her.  I can't.  That part of my life, I was betrayed, not just once, but twice, and I had to do my own healing to get past ALL that hurt.

Blog name

So, why did I choose mafiainca?  Well, if you break it down, it really it "Mafia In Ca".  Well, what I think I should have named the blog was "Mafia in The United States".  Why?

Cause I have seen and heard about things that the average citizen would-not/could-not believe.

So, I endeavor to educate, inspire and peak your interest in finding the Truth.

So, who is this Mafia that I speak of.  Well, the conspirators who tear families apart, the injustice's done to the average citizen, the meltdown of our society, and plenty others.

Till my next post...

New to blogging

Okay, so here I am. For years I have heard about blogging and thought that it was a way for our younger generation to "spill" all their insights, thought, emotions on everything trivial.

Boy was I wrong.

Why did I finally decide to initiate a blog?  Well, I have seen injustices done rampantly to my fellow human being from lieing to murder, and I thought...I could post my insights, what little insight I had.  I will let you decide if I have a little insight, or a lot.

I have named this blog "Everything under The Sun" as that is what it implies.  I am going to talk about that (Everything).  Y'know there was a lady who got a movie deal from her blog.  Why not me?  Or, at least, how about lots of people reading my blog and hearing from their fellow human being who has lots to talk about and lots of issues she needs to clear up.

So, I will keep this first blog of mine kind-of short as I have plenty to talk about and am trying to stay on topic for this first blog post.

See you in the next post.  Till then.